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Supernatural: See You Next Fall, I’ve Gone on Hiatus!
It’s true. I quit. I’ve decided to go ahead and start hiatus now … today … BEFORE tonight’s episode.
Seriously.
I can’t do this.
By “THIS” I mean that I am not watching tonight’s episode of Supernatural.
I can’t.
No … No … No.
I can’t. I can’t watch it. I’m not watching it. I’m not writing about it. I’m just not. Watching last week was it for me. I’m done.
Yes. I mean it.
Yes. Of course I’m sure.
I’m pretty sure.
Do you remember last summer when the final Harry Potter book came out? Were you one of the ones waiting with breathtaking anticipation to know if Harry truly became the boy that lived or if the price of defeating Lord Voldemort would be his life?
I was.
I went to the store that Saturday morning the book came out. I was up at 5:30am, to the store and back home with my treasure by 6:15am. I was all ready to read. I had cleared the entire day to be devoted to nothing but the wizarding world. However, seems my heart and my mind were not quite ready. Do you know that it was after 9am before I began??? I couldn’t do it. It wasn’t that I went back to bed. I didn’t. I distinctly remember making a cup of tea and sitting with my comforter in my comfy chair. I picked up my book and promptly put it back down. I needed to check my email. I needed to sort some laundry, clean up the kitchen, and straighten up my bedroom.
It took more than three hours to settle my nerves and bring my heart and mind to a place where I could sit down and begin reading.
It was the last book of the series. I didn’t want it to end. If I read it, it would be over.
If I watch the episode of Supernatural tonight … it will be over. There won’t be another new one until next fall.
The thing is … atleast when I finished reading the final book of Harry’s adventures, there was resolution. There was a satisfying ending. Sure I wanted more, but I could live with what I had been given. There wasn’t a precipice of terror from which I was left dangling.
The Kripke’s own words have indicated that this ending will not only match but be worse than the Impala crashing semi-truck of first season. He has said it with such glee that I can believe nothing less. There will be a precipice and I will be dangling.
So, I ask you, why should I watch? Why should I place myself in front of my television tonight and willingly sacrifice my sanity, my heart, my mind, and my soul?? Because that is what will happen. You know it and I know it. It is the path that the threads of season three have been weaving towards.
From the very beginning of The Magnificent Seven, Dean frolicking with abandonment and Sam researching old books and older languages, this season has been a time of gradual time moving shifts. Relief has been coupled with mind numbing terror, endless research has been followed by frustration, wild abandonment has been replaced with soul searching moments of reflection. Through each episode we have followed the boys journey towards these final moments … in the midst of secrets shared and secrets kept … Dean and Sam have followed the only path they really have ever known – killing evil sons of b***hes and raising a hell – as they each come to grips with the reality of what Dean did to keep his younger brother alive.
There was the tender moment in The Kids are Alright where Dean is faced with a life that wasn’t his and we saw the desire bloom even as the hope died. The moment was coupled with Sam’s stark realization that a demon might hold a key in saving his brother’s life, as well as holding information regarding his mother and her connection with the Yellow Eyed Demon.
Sin City was the part of the journey that showed us that underneath the glib, stoic façade, Dean’s fear was solidly in place. The information on the demons imparted by Casey gave him, and us, insights into what awaits the end of his year.
It was Fresh Blood’s portion of the tapestry that found Sam breaching the wall his brother had built around his fear. With nothing more than simply honesty, he reminded Dean of what … more to the point … who he was leaving behind, who was missing out, and who was terrified at what was coming.
This thread was strengthened, the bonds of the Winchester brothers were shown in full and raw honesty during A Very Supernatural Christmas as we glimpsed their past and the boys were honest about their feelings of their future.
The year was set, the eight episodes had us primed and ready. Then came the masterful episodes of Malleus Maleficarum, Dream a Little Dream of Me and Mystery Spot … each one designed to give us just a bit more, to keep the wheels of this final year spinning and our fears blossoming right along with Dean and Sam’s. Time is running out … Dean is going to hell. He can’t be saved by Sam or even Ruby. Someone holds his contract that has a deep and abiding hatred for the Winchesters. Sam is loosing his older brother and, scared of the future, is attempting to become more like him – trying to fit what he perceives as the only way he can survive without his brother. With each episode, a little piece of me found itself whimpering … desperately wanting to know, frightened at what I might find out.
Then came Jus in Bello and we were reminded that in addition to Dean going to hell, there was more at stake this season. There’s that pesky war issue. You know the one … against the army of 200 or so demons that were unleashed at the end of the second season. There’ve been skirmishes and in this episode we had one major battle, but the war isn’t over … not by a long shot.
The season became shortened and the strike robbed the boys of more time together and with us. Tactics and strategies were reviewed and the timeline was rearranged but the facts remain the same, Dean is still going to hell and there’s still a war brewing and now the other side has a leader, one who may be short but she’s powerful and she hates Sam with a passion. Plus there’s still those pesky secrets Sammy’s been keeping from his brother.
All the threads have been tightened and the last couple episodes have narrowed the focus back to Dean … the deal … and the fact that there seems to be no way out of it. And that is what scares me the most. Because this is The Kripke and his band of merry torturers, er … um, writers. We’re seeing the deal but there’s something else out there. Is Dean truly going to hell? It could happen. Will Sam go evil to save his brother? It could happen. Is there a chance another beloved member of our Supernatural family be sacrificed? It could happen. That’s the problem. With all the thoughts and speculations, there’s simply no way of knowing … no way of comprehending what may be in store for tonight.
Just the thought of it brings anxiety and fear. The writing will come from the master himself, the direction will be guided by the illustrious mind boggling, emotion twisting brilliance of Kim Manners, the roles will be played to exquisite perfection by two of the most gifted young actors I’ve had the pleasure of viewing in many years. Add to the mix the fact that the network gave an early greenlight for the next season which gave Kripke the license to work hard for the sound that delights his soul … our cries of despair and anguish.
Nope.
I can’t do it.
I simply cannot willing participate in something that I know will bring me grief, that will cause my heart to whimper.
I can’t.
I’m not watching.
I’m hanging up the closed sign and turning in my keys. I’m off to the wonderful world of PBS and Sesame Street where all is safe and the big yellow bird will keep me sane and protected.
Still … this is Supernatural I am talking about and that means that as an Obsessive, not to mention The Keeper of the Sanitarium, I must be supportive. After this long, there is no way I would be found watching some other program during it’s time slot. I mean, it’s on my voicemail that I won’t be available during this time due to the best show on television and I don’t think my own television even recognizes that there are other channels out there at 8pm on Thursday nights. So, for the sake of not making my voicemail out to be a liar or spraining my television by trying a different channel, I suppose I will need to turn it on at the appropriate time, to the appropriate channel. And, in order for it not to feel left out, I will also make sure that the VCR gets its weekly work out as well.
But that’s it!!
I’m not watching.
I won’t.
I can’t.
I will not be seated two feet away from my tv, wrapped in my comforter, surrounded by my comfy pillows, holding my box of tissues, clutching my nerf ball, scarfing down my pint of Ben & Jerry’s, and holding a candlelight vigil.
I’m not.
I’m sure that there is laundry to sort or a kitchen to clean … something mundane that won’t break my heart, wrench my soul, tear my gut, and claim my sanity.
And I won’t be writing about it.
Of that I’m pretty sure.
Really pretty sure.
You do believe me, don’t you?
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May 15, 2008 11:27 AM
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No, I don't believe you for a second!
I felt the same way about Harry Potter though. I got the book the day it came out, but I just couldn't race through it like others did. I stretched that thing out for days before I finally read the last words.
I'll be glued to the TV tonight however - just as you will, CindyRose! We could no more stay away from our boys, even with the looming cliffhanger, than we could stop breathing! Hmmmm. One could lead to the other, I'm afraid!
Thank you for all of your wonderful blogs this season. I'll see you in Hell!![]<img border=](http://community.tvguide.com/images/emoticons/devil.gif) ">
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May 15, 2008 11:34 AM
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My dear, Cindy Rose, this was a delightful blog. Full of so many truths and worries and fears...but I'll be glued to my TV screen and crying out in anguish, fear, despair, and anger at Kripke!
And I was the opposite with Harry Potter...I ordered through the mail so I was waiting anxiously and impatiently for it to arrive. When it did I immediately began reading and read for several hours until I was done. No, I didn't want the series to be over; however, I absolutely could not wait to find out how it all ended. Plus I work part time in a Wal-Mart and I worked the next day and was afraid people would be talking about it and ruin the ending for me.
So tonight I'll be glued to the TV and will enjoy the masterfully portrayed episode and cry out in all the emotions listed above - and will twist away throughout the entire summer until September arrives. Thank heavens for a delicious distraction in June!
I'll see you in Hell! Awesome, Coug, I'll see ya there!
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May 15, 2008 12:14 PM
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Cindy, beloved fellow fangirlfriend,
I can't blame for not wanting to watch what could be the end of Dean Winchester in some way, shape, or form and through blood and bone, Sam will likely end in some way as well, at least until Season 4 when hope and redemption will be resurrected once again and we will relish in the victory that will be the Winchester Brothers reunited and stronger than ever.
As for me, I will be as I have been for the last 3 seasons, sitting on my bed, notebook on my lap desk, pen in hand, poised to scribble every delicious moment, relegated there because my husband wants to watch Grey's Anatomy in the living room. A full and newly opened kleenex box will be faithfully by my side as it has been at every season finale and ever close by for the occasional episode that has caught me by surprise with gut wrenching tears.
Yes, my fangirlfriend, my fellow Obsessive, this is bound to be a DeanGirl's episode to outmatch all others and for that reason alone, I will be just as unable to stay away from it, hungering for the bravery that Dean will likely show in the face of utter despair and wretched hellfire, enjoying every moment of emotion that will be wrung out of both our brothers, and of course, railing against all that is Holy when it all ends and I am left curled up in a fetal position counting down the days to the Fall. Damned that cursed TV vehicle called the cliffhanger!!!! BUT thank goodness for iTunes!!!
This is the state I have chosen to enter tonight because to resist would be futile.
Dean may die tonight.
Dean may go to Hell tonight.
Sam might be turned to do evil tonight to save his brother.
I MUST BE THERE TO BEAR WITNESS!
I also voice Coug's sentiments about your blogs. Thanks for your words and for your delightful POVs on our boys and their fate and have wonderful summer hiatus! Keep in touch when you can via email. I would miss not hearing from you at all.
And Coug: I'll see you in Hell too.  Hee!
I leave you all a song from Man of La Mancha:
Hear me now
Oh thou bleak and unbearable world,
Thou art base and debauched as can be;
And a knight with his banners all bravely unfurled
Now hurls down his gauntlet to thee!
I am I, Don Quixote,
The Lord of La Mancha,
My destiny calls and I go,
And the wild winds of fortune
Will carry me onward,
Oh whithersoever they blow.
Whithersoever they blow,
Onward to glory I go!
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May 15, 2008 12:18 PM
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You do believe me, don’t you?
Yeah. I do.
But then again, I think you'll watch No Rest for the Wicked eventually, when the time is right. Just as I will.
It might be tonight. It might be tomorrow. It might be in June. Or even the day before the premiere of Season 4. When the time is right, you'll watch and we'll still be here.
Plus ... if it's Thursday, it must be Supernatural. Can't break that tradition just yet.
And I'll be here if you need more support in getting through it all. What else are friends for?
psst ... congrats on the red star! *two thumbs up*
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May 15, 2008 12:19 PM
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Cindy, dear Keeper,
You must watch tonight. You simply must. If for no other reason than your sanitarium residents will desperately need you late tonight, tomorrow morning, and all summer long. You have to watch so that you can help the rest of us get through the aftermath of tonight's finale and make it through the hellatus. You cannot abandon us. Your residents needs you.
For the sake of the very survival and sanity of the SnOb community, you've gotta suck it up and watch tonight, girlfriend. 
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May 15, 2008 12:19 PM
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Congrats on the Red Star!
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May 15, 2008 12:22 PM
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Cindy - we all know better!
What concerns me though is that our beloved Eric Kripke has said that he only wants Supernatural to have a 5 year run. Tonight we will be completing Seasn 3, and that only leaves 2 more seasons of Supernatural.
That does concern me!
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May 15, 2008 12:32 PM
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Hmmm...interesting the approaches. Ghost goes for empathy and agreement while Rod goes for tough love!
Congrats on the red star, Keeper!
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May 15, 2008 12:32 PM
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Hmmm...interesting the approaches. Ghost goes for empathy and agreement while Rod goes for tough love!
And I think Rod's the one that'll be smacked silly 'cause of it, Idaho.
*runs away laughing*
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May 15, 2008 12:36 PM
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*snickers*
Okay my friends, I have to laugh ...
Isn't it hysterical that TVG issues me a red star when I proclaim that I'm going on hiatus? You think maybe they're remembering what I did to the blogosphere last year and the techs have all breathed a sigh of relief?
Meanwhile ... thanks for the love ... both tough *shakes head at testosterone section of Ranger and Rod* and caring (Oh, Ghostie!) and all those in between - Erica, Sophie, Susie.
*grins*
I'm not promising anything but I will say this ... I can't seem to find anyone crazy enough to fill in as Keeper during a summer hiatus and leaving inmates to run amuck would probably not be the best of situations.
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May 15, 2008 12:48 PM
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You think maybe they're remembering what I did to the blogosphere last year and the techs have all breathed a sigh of relief?
That is hilarious, Cindy, and may actually be true!
I can't seem to find anyone crazy enough to fill in as Keeper during a summer hiatus
T'heck no, Keeper!! That is your job and no one else can do it any where nearly as well as you can!!
and leaving inmates to run amuck would probably not be the best of situations.
No, I think things might get a little messy if some people were left on their own!
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May 15, 2008 1:05 PM
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Holy Cow! It's just after 10:30 here on the southeast end of San Francisco Bay, and it's 91 degrees--I'm in hell already!
(Do they have fans down there? I've got about six going in my apartment right now.)
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May 15, 2008 1:38 PM
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First of all, congrats on the red star!
Marci: 91 in San Francisco? Dang, how rare is that?
You MUST watch tonight...if for no other reason than to grace us with your heartfelt, eloquent thoughts afterward, even though I know it probably will be a few days before you are coherent enough to write and the rest of us are sane enough to read!
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May 15, 2008 1:50 PM
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